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1/24/2013 8:54:19 PM
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I did something bad, and I'm ashamed of myself.
Before I start, what I did 'bad' wasn't criminal etc., it is morally bad.
So today was an awful day, people were pissing me off left, right and centre. I swear to god it was unbelievable! So it carried on and on, I could've lashed out at any time but I chose not to. But anything I would've done would have made me looked stupid, people would have only laughed and use it for gossip. Then this last guy (who I've known for a while, and is smaller than me), he was the final straw. So I smashed the shit out of him. It took a few people to cool me down. But then I instantly felt ashamed, not only was he smaller, he didn't piss me off as much and did not deserve it. I still feel bad. I should've battered the people who were pissing me off regardless.
Well I had to get this out, now feel free to troll me and tell me about bad moments in your life.
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You're right it was bad. Allow yourself to feel whatever it is you're feeling. Don't deny it. The regret and the guilt can help you grow if you don't let it consume you and make a bad situation worse. Be honest and face your consequences. It won't be the end of the world. Don't look for someone to blame. Do some honest evaluation of the situation from an outside perspective. After some self-reflection you may learn something about yourself. In the future, think of ways you can act positively in response to similar situations as opposed to reacting negatively. Avoid snap judgments and giving in to the temptation to lower yourself to a previous state of barbaric rage. We are the result of billions of years of evolution (or the product of a grand design, if you prefer) and we should act accordingly.
