Just a little warning this may be a little long for some so if you dont like reading much dont bother I guess. But if you have the time and care then thank you. For the past phew days iv slowly started to drift away from my favorite game, and while there's many issues within the game and a lot of people asking for change my reason for leaving the game more often now isn't a break from it or due to the current content we have. My Issue I have had to face in destiny for 5 years since midnight launch is selective mutism and severe anxiety. I got my ghost edition and all the collectors editions after and dished out so much money into the game with passion that I felt like it was doing some good to destiny in some way. I had a tight knit group of friends due to me struggling to socialize who I was able to complete a phew raids with in destiny 1 up until destiny 2 leviathan raids. I can only talk to certain people and most of the time when I try to talk to others nothing comes out no matter how hard I try until I feel comfortable enough the words freely come and I can finally say hi to someone after a year with them. Imagine playing with someone who cant physically talk to you until years apart, LFG sounding great at this point huh? that's the next thing I wanted to get to with my little destiny trilogy story and how posters on my wall came to crumples on the floor. When destiny 2 got released and it was on PC a lot of my friends in my tight knit group began to drift apart we would do less raids and less trials and less everything until people in my group just stopped playing destiny be it with them having families of their own or just simply moving on I stuck with it with one other friend but that other friend had moved to PC so on console I realized quickly that I was on my own. I moved to PC with him but he had a family so wasn't around much anymore so I continued to play through destiny 2 and proceeded to get redrix's claymore solo then moved into shadowkeep and soloed what I could here and there such as nightfalls and farmed guns for many hours, managed to do shattered thrown without dying after around my 3rd try and continued with reckoner title in season of the drifter but I came to realize that I began to let raids in the newer dlc's pass by because of the infamous 6 players needed. This is where destiny began to feel like not a passion anymore but rather a miserable cess pool of watching time. Every raid I let go by. I knew I could complete them and I wanted to but a metal wall not even brick was stopping me, I did all the blacksmith title stuff except the raid parts I did all the moments of triumph stuff except the raids parts and obviously now its gone I had only one triumph in that title to complete and I didn't due to fear of other people and now my destiny that I enjoyed at every level, every moment every quest and mission has become something where I know I can do a lot of things in this game but match made activities with lfg I cannot. Now iv come to relies maybe this game isn't for me. The social aspect of this game is.... difficult for me to cope with I am trying to stay with it as much as I can and continue to let these activities go by and be considered a "casual" for not completing them but iv felt like this is not the way to keep playing destiny and that maybe my destiny was nearing its end. If you currently suffer from these kind of problems such as social anxiety or are simply just deaf or mute. I hope that you have a good time with destiny as I did and I hope you all have a lot of people around you that can help you enjoy every part of this game and I hope that you dont let your problems get in the way of enjoying your destiny like I did. Thank you for reading my destiny story and my 5 year guardians journey. EDIT: Thank you all to who have commented with kindness and compassion although there are many I highly hope that this post may also help others find friends or help with what they are missing in destiny I have taken back from this post much feedback and I feel less alone. I hope that you all have a good day on destiny!