Or don't. You seem to not respond well to nice words, or perhaps deep down you feel like you don't deserve people to be nice to you, but either way any nice words said by me or any other user here, you probably won't accept. Therefore let's go the other route. Slade, you seem to be an asshole at times, but I'm guessing that you genuinely don't recognize when you're being one because of some lack of ability to pick up social cues. Because of this you can't recognize when people are trying to be nice to you and due to some insecurities, you always have to pick apart any niceties and turn them against yourself in a very depressing, pathetic, self-deprecating manner. It's honestly an ugly and awful thing to do to yourself, which I will never really understand, but apparently you take some pleasure in psychologically harming yourself otherwise you wouldn't keep doing it. Or maybe your brain has been so chemically imbalanced for the past few years that it's somehow convinced itself that this masochist pleasure is all there is to reality and there's no escaping the loop. Doesn't really matter though as no matter what anyone else says, your brain is going to warp it into a personal attack and make you feel like shit. So here's the thing. Any ten nice things said by us will do fuc k all to help you in any way. We aren't able to do shit to help you until you are actually ready to help yourself. Call a fuc king doctor, talk to people close to you, try and be fuc king nice to yourself for once rather than psychologically self-harming. That's really the only you can do if you really are trying to reach out for help. If not, and you're an attention whore troll, find a high bridge, and do a fuc king flip. Sidenote: if i get banned for this stonebrixx, MonocleMan, or SquishyFace are designated Calendarmen until I'm unbanned.