How do you deal with your fellow Guardian’s death in real life?
Hi guys, and Bungie.
I’d like to tell you about my friend, who was a wonderful person and one of the best and most skilled Guardians I’ve ever known.
His name was Stepan aka Kabc and he’s been a dedicated player for years. We met in the game almost 2 years ago and spent countless hours playing Crucible together. He taught me a lot about how to be a better player and listened to me whenever I needed it. Unfortunately, yesterday he passed away (03/14). Also it was my dad’s birthday, so I definitely won’t forget it. He lived in Russia, and current situation in the country is very unstable because of the war against Ukraine. The problems of the past few weeks have taken their toll on everybody’s mental and physical health. It also intensified Stepan’s chronic issues with blood pressure. He was sleep deprived, stressed out and wanted to find a way out and support his family.
Still, all this time he continued to play Destiny 2 and helped others with new activities. The most heartbreaking thing is that he was about to leave Russia for a new job and then just.. collapsed.
Stepan was the kindest soul and always liked to help people with Trials, competitive Crucible and raids. And in life, too. That’s how I met him as well. I’ve never met anyone with such a pure and kind heart: honest, modest, sweet and loyal. I’m writing this with tears in my eyes because I want something to be left here as some kind of memory. He played the game till his last day.
I’ve been playing Destiny since 2014 and met a lot of friends there, most of them are my closest friends now. And Stepan was one of the best among them. I met him, became his friend and fell in love with him thanks to Destiny 2.
I hope I will find strength to continue to play Destiny, even though it seems pointless now and only brings pain without Stepan there: without a single way to see his character or his online status, just a tiny thing to imagine he’s still there, crunching cookies at his desk while in orbit.
I wish we had custom statuses in the game or custom emblems for situations like this, or could search for characters and look at their last loadouts. Just to be with our loved ones in the imaginary world that brought us together. The game that only brought happiness now only brings pain. I don’t know how to deal with that pain.
See you on the other side, my dear friend.
I loved you so much.
To all the guardians who have lost their loved ones: your love is beyond beautiful, and I know that those you have lost loved you just as much. Keep pushing though life, those you’ve lost are watching from the path afterlife, and they would be so proud of you.